We’re living in interesting times, wot?

I have actually been socially distancing for about three weeks now, largely because I almost never go anywhere anyway. Now that my county has officially gone into lockdown — or they will as of tomorrow at 6pm — I get permission to stay home and get things done!

At least, that’s the theory.

For posterity, I suppose I should just mention that I am writing from the first wave of the novel coronavirus pandemic. Last I checked, the U.S. was up to more than 78,000 cases and a bit over 1,100 deaths. Since I am over 60 years old and have a chronic illness, I am considered to be an individual at greater risk for not surviving if I contract the illness. That’s nerve wracking.

That said, I am reasonably healthy, I exercise regularly and have recently got my hemoglobin A1Cs under control. I think I would have a decent shot at recovery, if I did contract the COVID-19 disease.

But being sick really sucks, so I’d rather not find out the hard way.

Anyway … I’m not being as single-mindedly diligent as I could be, now that I’ve got all this time to sit at home. I have interviews to transcribe, and a chapter to finish drafting, and data to analyze, and reading to do, and a paper to write for publication (I hope), and additional chapters to rough in. I’m also teaching remotely — a truly bizarre experience — so I will soon have grading to do, too. I could be getting all kinds of shit done but I’m not.

Well, that’s not entirely true. My house is cleaner than it’s been in years.

It’s a weird feeling. Not panic, not even close to that. But there’s a kind of formless dread that sits deep inside and it’s making it hard for me to concentrate. After a fashion, I’m sitting here in the house waiting to get sick. That’s kind of silly because, as I’ve said, I’ve been socially isolating for quite some time now. I don’t have any real reason to imagine I’m already sick so, if nobody brings it home, then we’ll be fine. At the same time, though, I’m kind of bracing myself and wondering who this pandemic is going to cost me, who am I going to lose? Will Gina and Cain (formerly known as Kimmie) be alright? What about Derek? Will he be okay? Will he lose his dad?

Given the way I’m feeling right now, there’s a lot I could say about the crazies who are currently in the public eye … but I won’t. There are a lot of different things that’ll be playing out in the near future and it’ll be interesting to see what life in these United States looks like after the dust settles.

Meanwhile … stay safe and be well.